WATERGUY
Carrying five gallons of water in large glass and plastic jugs, driving hundreds of miles a week, dealing with the public, dealing with a variety of actual businessmen that believed in making money more than making time valuable, writing, rhyming, writhing in pain, running on empty—I split into so many alter-egos, none of whom did anything that well—directing was the only logical sequence of activities. I was carrying water to make everything else possible—never being satisfied with working for others because I always felt I worked hard and never felt appreciated so I basically worked for food. I was the narrator of my own story and the only audience but always looking for a philosophy that works.
Professor was a mathematician who taught tai-chi ch’uan. His wife was 25 years his junior. Breadman worked as though there were no tomorrow and allowed me to use his property for storage. Decker and Felicity were early customers and always had a little time for me. Andrea the librarian had faith that I would carry things until the OC Friends of the library took on its own life. Tom Clancy was an asshole. Water was a way that kept me grounded. There was always something or someone that made time valuable. Mr. J was happy when Clinton was elected because Mountain Valley Water from Hot Springs, Arkansas would remain in the White House even though he was a Republican and Bush drank it also. I had to escape from the water business. If you’re a co-creator of the galaxy you inhabit is it possible to transcend your situation and transport to another galaxy. If the universe is a collection of galaxies and all of the galaxies are the same what would be the point of change. Is the awareness of other galaxies the first step in the ability to explore other galaxies. If you inhabit a world where the major belief systems were created when the world was small and flat and the center of the universe and suddenly the world becomes a dot in a galaxy that is a dot in a universe with only unanswered questions is it time to throw off the old belief systems and look for new systems in which to have faith. If money becomes god and god doesn’t care should there be faith in an uncaring god or is the quality of time spent the only value to be respected.